“I don’t know about these awards shows,” Bieber wrote in an Instagram post Monday, which, for whatever reason, was accompanied by a photo of sheep grazing in a field below an old Irish castle. “No disrespect to anybody at any of the shows or the people running it … But I don’t feel good when I’m there nor after.”

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“I try to think of it as a celebration but can’t help feeling like people are rating and grading my performance,” he continued. “A lot of people in the audience there seem to be worried about how much camera time they will get or who they can network with. When I’m doing a regular show I feel they are there for the right reasons and to strictly have a good time! But these award shows seem so hollow.”